I looked at the calendar and realized it is exactly a week until I turn 30!! I'm starting to feel a little better about leaving my 20's but I'm trying to savor every last moment of them! I had some really great times in my 20's but I honestly wish that my 10 Year High School reunion happened. I graduated in 2002 and back then I was thinking where I would be in 10 years. I thought it would be so cool to see how everyone turned out in 10 years. I got excited as it was starting to come up on the 10 year mark. I often joked that I just wanted to go so I could laugh at those who didn't really like me in high school. Who was I to think that I would be better off than others? When it became 2012, I was ready, I was trying to figure how I was going to wear my hair, what I was going to wear, who I was going to see and it got cancelled. Not enough people purchased tickets. I was waiting for enough money to afford them. I was working at the time but I was paying for daycare, diapers, wipes, food, bills and so on. So then some people in my class got together and tried to get the reunion together and at that time, I was let go from my job and searching but I really wanted to go. Once again, no one was buying tickets and it was cancelled. My boyfriend was saying that social media kinda ruins things like that. You can see what everyone is up to on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. It's sad that we kinda don't have person to person interaction as much anymore. Everyone always has a phone, computer or tablet to their face. I was kinda disappointed we couldn't get it together but honestly, I was afraid to go. In high school, I had a small group of "friends" and people really didn't like me too much. I was in the band and a cheerleader. And I honest did run my mouth too much and talk about people. I tried to be something I wasn't. I honestly didn't think that anyone would want to see me there anyway. Plus, I wasn't where I thought I would be career wise and just not happy with my life at the time in general. So I thought people would be laughing at me...still. It always got to me when I would here that someone didn't like me, someone was talking about me, there were rumors about me. I thought I was a nice person and fun to be around. But I'm starting to come from behind what I've been hiding behind and starting to realize who I really am. I hope that we can have some kind of reunion in the near future.
You know when you keep thinking of something and you just feel like you have to get it out? That was me before sitting down to write this post. I had something else planned to write but I kept thinking...sometimes its hard and it just evolved from there. We all heard the sayings, life isn't fair, life is hard and so on. Sometimes life can be hard but we don't experience it for long. There are so many things that I want to do but I know I can't do a million things at once. I can't just pick and go anymore, I'm someone's parent now. There are times I want to but I know things have to be planned out now. I will get to those place I want to go, just have to be patient and plan it out. It seems like we focus so much on what is hard about life that we forget about the easy stuff. We forget sometimes about all the good things that happen and to be grateful for getting through those rough patches. You may not like your living situation but you have a roof over ...
I'm sorry to hear your HS reunion got cancelled, I have to agree with your bf too Social Media basically ruins the thrill of how is everybody now. In my news feed they don't miss a day to post what they had for lunch or what they did over the weekend. I have to admit I used to be like that, I would post everything on my online profiles until I realized how I am making it easy for identity thieves to get info about me! So now if my friends do really want to know about me, we need to meet for lunch or coffee to catch up! Advance Happy Birthday girl and welcome to the club =) it's not that bad but yeh I went thru a phase like yours too as I look back in my 20's *sigh* those were the days huh?!
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by Jackie! Thanks for the early birthday wishes. The more I think about it, it's not that bad because I still look so young lol! It is sad to not have a lot of personal interaction anymore.
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