On a personal note....

I had other stuff on my mind but with Mother's Day around the corner, the thought of this post changed! It's just amazing how motherhood can change your life and perspective on things! You have someone else to think about first, care and provide for and teach about life. Growing up, I thought I knew it all. Boy was I wrong lol! I remember when my mom told me I had to start doing my own laundry. I didn't really listen on how to do it. When I tried to wash my clothes, I honestly thought the washing machine already had the soap in it so all I had to do was throw the clothes in. Lol, I still laugh about that. She laughed at me too and taught me the right way. She had so many life lessons for me that I didn't appreciate or really grasp until I was independent and doing things on my own. She was right about everything she was teaching me and I appreciate it so much. I love how supportive my mom is. She's always there when I need her, especially helping me raise my son. Nana is his favorite person! I really appreciate my mom so much more now that I'm a mom and see that all she has done for me. There have been many times she had to come pick me up from school because I got sick and she still will take care of me when I'm not feeling well. She was at every event I was in, Football Games I cheered in, Band Competitions, Dance Recitals, Graduations, Church plays, I just remember her always there. I loved how my parents let me try out all different activities and sports until I found something I really like and was good at. I didn't like contact sports too much lol!  She really has raised and brought up an independent, intelligent, loving person. I know how to stand on my own and do things by myself.  The other mother figure that was in my life and miss so much was my grandmom. As I starting to think about her, I'm starting to get emotional and may start crying. She's been gone five years and I still feel like something is missing in my life. That woman was the rock of our family and she was just amazing! She taught me how to cook and really clean a house! I was so messy and still kinda am lol! She was just full of knowledge and stories about our family. She also had embarrassing pictures of everyone! I always loved when she came to visit because it was a fun time! She was well loved and loved to dance. She could get down like she was my age lol! It really hit me hard when she left because I thought she was going to be around forever. I was not prepared for her to leave us and I wish I could call her and talk to her. I miss her waking me up early in the morning on my birthday just to sing to me. If you ever notice when I do my videos, I wear a ring on my middle finger on my left hand which was hers. I wear it everyday and always feel naked when I forget it. Its just crazy how you think before you even have children what type of mother you will be and how you will raise your children and just everything. I'm glad I had a Grandmother and Mother to help guide me and fill me with knowledge to help me with me with my son and other children that will come in the future. My mom keeps hinting that my son needs a brother now lol. I'm not ready for another one just yet but I do want more children. I love this new role of motherhood and just new experience of my life. So Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there and those reading this!!